1st Feb.. it was one of the worst day in my life.. putting aside the blunder made for proj, which is alrdy v bad, bad news just have to come one after another.
the whatsapp i gt from you, erased all the smiles i had on my face. i really cant bring myself to say [congratulations] to you. i didnt reply w a smile. i didnt type a word. i put one emoticon. if u want to know wad i reply and uses an iphone, it is actually the "facial expression tab" 2nd row, 3rd face. this is the best i could go..
yes i damn useless.. i have been "advising" my friend to let go, dun bother abt such guys, dun waste time, dun hold on.. when it comes to myself, im actually way worst than her.. at least her ex doesnt have any commitments so she can still have him back.. but my is like IMPOSSIBLE. yes, if you go back to the first few post and read abt M... i think im the one w the least rights to talk sense into her..
yeapp, i have been preparing myself since tt day for this piece of news. i tot i was mentally prepared. at least I THOUGHT i was.. but when i read the msg, my heart still sank.. i just cant smile.
that is what we thought right? we did this tgt before too you rmb??
you are the one i wanted to marry since im 14. till now, im 20, you are still the one that i wanted to marry to.. i promised to wait, cos i know you are the one! we talked abt our futures, where i will kiss you goodbye before you leave for work. while i will take care of our baby. when you come home, we will have happy dinner together. den we will read stories to our baby. before bedtime, we will cuddle tgt on the sofa to watch our fav movie..
again, changes. everything stay intact, just that my role in ur life have been replaced.
i think a plaster is not enough anymore. who else can i blame for my own injuries?
my brain warned me..
my friends persuaded me..
but my heart still went ahead w/o heeding any advice..
liar! liar! liar! liar!
have been holding on way too long.. much longer den i am supposed to.. i guess this time round, it is really game over.. the difference is that there is no longer a replay button..
one day, i will say this proudly. but not now..
one day, i will say this proudly. but not now..that is how i spent my Wednesday night.
ok, B is definitely gg to call and scold me after he read this )': but you know when im sad, im better at typing to express myself then to say it out loud right? tt's why i didnt call you last night. you bear to scold me? comfort me la.. ):
the night wasnt eventful. i didnt dream of anything. but my chest area still feel damn stuffy. morning was bad.. very bad..