1 Feb...

1st Feb.. it was one of the worst day in my life.. putting aside the blunder made for proj, which is alrdy v bad, bad news just have to come one after another.

the whatsapp i gt from you, erased all the smiles i had on my face. i really cant bring myself to say [congratulations] to you. i didnt reply w a smile. i didnt type a word. i put one emoticon. if u want to know wad i reply and uses an iphone, it is actually the "facial expression tab" 2nd row, 3rd face. this is the best i could go..

yes i damn useless.. i have been "advising" my friend to let go, dun bother abt such guys, dun waste time, dun hold on.. when it comes to myself, im actually way worst than her.. at least her ex doesnt have any commitments so she can still have him back.. but my is like IMPOSSIBLE. yes, if you go back to the first few post and read abt M... i think im the one w the least rights to talk sense into her..

yeapp, i have been preparing myself since tt day for this piece of news. i tot i was mentally prepared. at least I THOUGHT i was.. but when i read the msg, my heart still sank.. i just cant smile.

that is what we thought right? we did this tgt before too you rmb??

you are the one i wanted to marry since im 14. till now, im 20, you are still the one that i wanted to marry to.. i promised to wait, cos i know you are the one! we talked abt our futures, where i will kiss you goodbye before you leave for work. while i will take care of our baby. when you come home, we will have happy dinner together. den we will read stories to our baby. before bedtime, we will cuddle tgt on the sofa to watch our fav movie..

again, changes. everything stay intact, just that my role in ur life have been replaced.

i think a plaster is not enough anymore. who else can i blame for my own injuries?

my brain warned me..

my friends persuaded me..

but my heart still went ahead w/o heeding any advice..

liar! liar! liar! liar!

have been holding on way too long.. much longer den i am supposed to.. i guess this time round, it is really game over.. the difference is that there is no longer a replay button..
one day, i will say this proudly. but not now..

that is how i spent my Wednesday night.

ok, B is definitely gg to call and scold me after he read this )': but you know when im sad, im better at typing to express myself then to say it out loud right? tt's why i didnt call you last night. you bear to scold me? comfort me la.. ):

the night wasnt eventful. i didnt dream of anything. but my chest area still feel damn stuffy. morning was bad.. very bad..

idk what is bugging me.. but im feeling really lousy..

i wish i knew the reason.

我笑不出来现在。

last dinner @ Market 85

reason why i put the pic on top is cos it is my favourite! our toothy smile! <3

friday was great! finally met up w jiaqi and kaikeng! zhihan juz ret back to sg so he wasnt able to make it..

so anyway, after afa test, went down to bedok to meeeet the pretty and the handsome! headed down to 85 to have my forever-in-craving bakchormee! still taste damn awesome! (:

fyi, 85 will be closing down soon to renovate for a year! there goes my another memory.. -.- yes, i do complain how stuffy it is, how dirty it is, how hard it is to find a seat but still, this is wad made 85 market 85 (:! the days when we lepak there tgt, chat thr tgt, chill there tgt, eat till wan explode tgt, loiter ard there tgt.. have to say byebye to them! ):

but but but...... nevermind! (: we can always create new memories! haven been thinking this and that recently (: good job puaysee!

our A1 table! may we get all the Ace after sitting at this table! (:

after our dinner, we went to tamp to chill out! went to walk ard den went to urban write! (: jiaqi showed me the hellokitty section! OMGOMGOMG i saw the graduation "diary" kind.. w/o a second thought, i held one on hand! it has e hello kittty sanrio (C) sticker on, so i guess it is authentic plus it is selling at $7.90! HOW TO NOT GET IT!? (: yay, i can get my class to write on it now!

after paying $$, i open it! and i gt jiaqi and kaikeng to write in it! i read as kaikeng wrote.. i wun write the entire para here but the most impt sentence is "ni hen ke ai" . even though i read it as kaikeng wrote, still KAIKENG SAY I KE AI <3 den after tt, im known as [ke ai de pei si] HAHAAH!

jiaqi is another sweeet one! w/o hesitating, she wrote [love you!] WAHHHH! <3 true love from jiaqi! heeheehee! to those that hurt her, you will have ur karma. it is definately ur loss to nt cherish her. but nvm, because of you and you, she will know that there are a lot more ppl cherishing her! IM ONE OF THEM!

IM NOT LEAVING YOU JIAQI! (: muackks! love you too jiaqi!

wanted to go starbucks to chill out! yes it is friday night, BUT KIDS/ ADULTS, you should go home and rest ur liver and stop taking up the spaces in starbucks! WE GOT NO SEATS.. so we went mcdonalds! arghhh!

nvm, had my cone icecream! (:

after tt, we train home! happie night w happy people! ((:

my jiaqi <3

we gt telepathy and we wore pink tgt! ((:

kaikeng writing in my hellokitty booook! ((:

this is wad girls are goood at other than shopping!

the biggest pic, i can sense her love for me loh!

JIAQI can you sense my LOVE FOR YOU? <3

so dreamy!

for once, i hope im a guy. so i can protect this woman here!

smileyy!

KAIKENG! u and ur forever in shocked face!

while kk went to get icecream;

wo men! <3

the 2e6 's!